So many changes...

So I had to take a break.... But it's time to continue our story...

So much has changed since Dec. 27, the date of our last post.
We found out on Jan. 17 that we had two tiny babies, twins... and we lost them on the 18th.
It's been so hard.... Death is a bastard. Miscarriage is so ugly and much harder than I had ever understood.
Honestly, I have spent so much time in confusion. We love our sweet babies and HATE that we never got to squeeze their tiny cheeks. We were never meant for death,... the reality of that statement is so real after losing them.

I miss them.

Tears come so easy...

This 2008 is turning out to be so different than I imagined. But here's what hasn't changed. Will Hart is amazing. We have loved each other dizzy through this entire thing. He is THE most amazing man I have ever known.
Another constant- My Father continues to confuse and woo me at the same time. I know I am His, but I struggle feeling orphaned. We are totally working through some major stuff...